What do I do with all this? What have I learned thus far? I don’t know the answers. I have seen what doesn’t work, that which became self-evident after only a year. Lack of accountability creates problems. Lack of critical thinking and abstract thinking skills creates problems. Lack of information or information-connectedness creates problems.
I am not able to easily motivate myself to complete small personal projects that I lack passion about. I work better with a team. Maybe that is why I have always surrounded myself by amazing friends (I have told you all that you are amazing right? Because you are). They help me to be more than I am. I have sought jobs with amazing people and have been lucky to always find them. Luck has certainly been on my side in my life, that is for sure. Is this wrong of me? I am not a practical man, and can rarely get things done without a team. I am not a strong loner. I need others.
I enjoy the simplicity of my life here. Not the simple life as in the rustic life, not the simple life that Thoreau claimed he found (he didn’t by the way, he was a poser). Lack of interpersonal complication is a good relief. Working with minimal interaction with larger systems I am not able to change is nice as well. I don’t integrate into large, pre-existing systems that enforce certain restrictions on how you interact with the system. I would much rather create the system and define my own interactions with it, and modify it later if I have to. This applies both to life and computer programming by the way. Sorry for the systems-talk.